I must face my fears

I feel I owe everyone an apology. I thought I was ready to go to a club. Well I was ready to go to a club, in fact I successfully picked up a girl or well I was close to it when I got smashed in the face with a beer bottle from her ex boyfriend. I had no idea that he was watching me the whole time while I successfully hit on and was in the process of picking up his ex girlfriend. The only thing I remember was the feeling of the bottle smashing into my face and then the burning stinging feeling in my right eye. Some people helped me up while the bouncers tackled him. I was rushed to the hospital and I could only see out of my left eye at the time. The doctors had to remove all the chunks of glass from my cheeks and inside my mouth. They also had to remove a chunk from my right eye. I can see now again but only about 80% in that eye. I am going for surgery for it in April and they think they can fix the last 20%. I have a bit of a red dot permanently now in my right eye. I am hoping it can be a conversation piece heh :S

I canceled my membership to the online dating site I was a member of because my face was so fucked up and bruised and shit there was no way I could go on any dates with any girls. I have been pretty bummed out for the last almost 2 months now. I mean I feel good that I was able to walk into a bar and just start talking to chicks and everything was going great but I am also kind of spooked now because of what happened. I mean how do I know the next girl I hit on doesn't have some psycho exboyfriend 10 feet away? I haven't been doing much, just chilling and playing video games etc. I have been discouraged about the whole thing plus my face looked kinda harsh. Well my face pretty much looks fine now except for a few minor scars which I will have now forever.

I decided I need to get back into the game. I can not live in fear any longer so I decided I will rejoin the online dating site tonight and put my profile back up. I am going to have to start again in terms of meeting girls. I will have to go through the website and look at all the new girls that have joined since I was last on and send them some messages. I am not going to say anything about the "incident" and I am not ever going to mention it to anyone. One thing I am going to do though is join a mixed martial arts school and learn some grappling and some striking like muai thai or whatever its called. Speaking of which, in 2 days GSP will destroy Dan Hardy on UFC Also I will get to see my boy Shane Carwin smash Frank Mir in round 1.