Entries by Trevor

Wow was I a noob! I spent hours last night reading websites about how to deal with women once you get them. For starters my body posture was all wrong. I remember distinctively leaning forward a lot and not sitting back. What you are supposed to do, at least what I read was that you are supposed to lean back in your chair and act really casual and not too interested. If you act too interested then they don't want you. You basically have to pretend or act like you are a perfect 10 and they are lucky to even be talking to you. You have to almost put them down playfully. If you act eager or desperate in any way than you won't get anywhere and it will turn them off completely.

What you talk about is very important. You have to tell them witty stories that demonstrate higher value. You have to prove to them that you are used to getting very attractive girls. You have to ask them stuff like "So what else do you got going for you other than your looks?" I know most of you are saying wow that is not what I would have imagined would be the right thing to say but the more I read about this stuff the more it makes sense. I think I have been the good guy too often and that is why I haven't been having much luck.

Now I feel all empowered and I almost feel like going out to a club by myself tonight and talking to strange women and testing these newly acquired skills. You know what, if I drink enough here I just might do that. Actually I have a better idea, I am going to go through my msn list and find myself a wingman and together we are going to go out and tear that shit up. I am going to have to teach him some stuff first but that's ok because it is still early

Ok I admit that I am totally gameless. Yes girls find me attractive enough to pursue, in other words they look at my profile on the online dating site and they are like well this guy looks ok and his profile seems ok so they message me and they are interested. What I mean by gameless is that I have no game. I don't seem to have a problem with the attraction phase but after that I get totally lost. I think I say the wrong things or I ask the wrong questions. I also think that maybe I reveal too much or simply that I reveal the wrong things and that I need to choose more carefully when I am talking to these girls. I said I was going to read some websites that explain how to have better game etc but I never did. I am not sure that simply reading these website will help. I think I might learn better by trial and error so that is what I am going to do for now. When I am done writing this blog entry I am going to read through all the messages I have ever sent to these girls and read all of my MSN chat logs to see where I might have gone wrong.

I am pretty sure I need to bring out my more sensitive side if I have one. I can't think how I am used to thinking. I can't be the hunter gatherer anymore. I need to be like the guy in the ad in GQ Magazine all suave and shit. Ok I changed my mind, I AM going to read some websites about what to do once you are on a date. I think I have seen before some lists of things to say or not to say when you are on a date. Meh. I am just going to stop here and start reading.

I do not understand women! I got an email from Rebecca saying I wasn't aggressive enough and she needs the kid of man that knows how to take charge. Wtf bbq sauce I thought this girl and I were really hitting it off... I thought I was doing everything right because she never said otherwise. This is the thing about people that pisses me off and more specifically the thing that women do. They don't tell you honestly how they feel about something. Why didn't she tell me I needed to be more aggressive grr I thought I was doing the right thing by moving slow and being respectful of her boundaries etc. She was responding god damnnit! She was smiling and laughing and appeared to genuinely be having a damn good time, I just don't understand women.

This online dating site has been great for meeting new hot women, but I seem to be lost what to do once I am with them. I'm just a regular guy with regular needs, I don't understand why women have to be so complicated. In my own mind I believe I am doing things correctly and I am getting positive responses but then this bomb gets dropped on me and I am like wtf am I doing? Do I know anything about dating and retaining a woman? Well, not really. I haven't been out with too many women and I prefer to just be fishing with my buddies.

I need to think about things completely differently. I have been reading some websites about picking up women and about what women want and I think my eyes have been opened a bit but I still have lots of studying to do of this strange race of human.

Happy new year everyone and sorry for my last post getting cut off. Let me finish the story for you.

So there we were at dinner. Her without yoga pants on, me wishing she wore them lol anyways so it was a pretty good dinner and we got all the get to know you bullshit out of the way which was ok. The food was REALLY good so that was great because the last few places I have eaten at I have been very disappointed with the taste of the food. Yes the atmosphere was cool and everything but I really like to eat food and I especially like to eat food that tastes really good where they put some pride into their food. So dinner was uneventful and she was a bit reserved which was a big turn on to me because I don't like slutty flirty girls, I like girls who are classy and play hard to get. I do not like easy girls. Who does? So yeah that date ended in front of her condo, where we exchanged a brief kiss... nothing special. I barely got my hands on her amazing hips before she was pulling away and running inside like a scene from a movie.

Speaking of movies I really need to watch the end of the Berserk series. It is a cool anime that a friend recommended to me and I am glad he did because it is really cool. Gatsu ftw! I also need to see Sherlock Holmes and that new 3D movie Avatar. I think I am going to bring a girl on a date to a movie. I haven't been on a movie date in a long time. My preference for a date is going to a coffee shop and talking. I think you can get more accomplished in a place like that because you don't have to worry about food and eating etc. Just simple good conversation over a cup of coffee... shit this sounds like the movie "Reality Bites" with Winonya Ryder and that faggity dude I forget his name - oh yeah Ethan Hawke. Although Hawke was good in "Training Day" with Denzel Washington.

I wised up after the first date and for our second date I asked her if she wanted to go shopping at the mall. I somehow hinted at her wearing yoga pants and she said she would. I was like omgomgomg. So I met her at the mall near where I live and I nearly jizzed in my pants when she walked up to me. I was like don't look down, don't look down, look up at her face, don't look at her ass or her cameltoe, but it was very challenging. Especially because she did a little spinorama and was like "how do I look" and I was like you look amazing drool you have an amazing body... then I was like shit I shouldn't have said that because now I am going to appear to eager. So we walked around the mall for a few hours looking at shit, trying on clothes etc, was fun. I conveniently ended up walking behind her a few times so I could check out her ass jiggling in those yoga pants and omg did she look good. She had a nice big gap between her crotch and there were constantly old men lurking around us trying to get a glimpse of her thong showing through her yoga pants.

I swear to god I was walking around with a boner most of the time I barely remember any of our conversations because I was either staring at her or thinking about doing things to that body omg. Also it didn't help that I had barely any blood left in my brain. Finally it was time to end the date and I wrapped my arms around her and was kissing her with my hands on her hips. I was tempted to just slide my hands down and grab her ass but I didn't because I didn't want to waste a future of good times over one ass grab. I assume I will get to grab it all I want in the future if I play my cards right. She is away until Monday but once she gets back I am going to go on another date with her which will hopefully end with a more favorable outcome this time

On Tuesday I went out with that Yoga girl Rebecca. I took her to a restaurant called Mimosa Grill for dinner. I had this fantasy that she would show up wearing yoga pants but I knew that would never happen because we were going out for dinner and it wouldn't really be appropriate. I think the only way to see her in yoga pants would be to go on a lunch date with her or ask her if she wants to go for a jog during the day or something. Maybe I should just ask her if she wants to go for a "hike" in the hills.

I picked her up and we drove to the place. She was wearing some tight low rise jeans and she looked really good in them. We spoke a bit in the car, mainly it was her talking while she fiddled with my car stereo trying to find some music she likes. She seemed kind of hyperactive and I was wondering whether or not we were going to click or not. We got to the restaurant, went in, sat down and ordered drinks. I think she was talking the entire time. I was just nodding and saying I see etc. It seemed like it took forever for the food to arrive. It wasn't like we ordered anything special, I guess they just have really shitty service. I hate it when I go to a place and I am hungry and it takes like an hour to get the food.

I am happy to report that I have successfully met two girls that are into yoga and also new age music. They are different though because they aren't hippie looking girls with long dread locks and facial piercings and Jamaican looking clothing. They are sexy, hot, lean women who look like normal classy females. The difference is that they are both very spiritual and both are big into yoga and other spiritual stuff. I am down with all of that and like I said in my earlier post I am specifically targeting females that are all spiritual and stuff and specifically into yoga. Both of the girls I met have been practicing yoga for more than 5 years and both of them have been to India and are always going away on yoga and meditation retreats. In fact I wouldn't be surprised if they both knew each other, but of course I would never be dumb enough to ask either of them if they knew each other. Man it is really windy here today and the wind pisses me off. Now my next challenge is to find out if these kinds of women would tolerate a guy who is into hanging with his buddies and playing football and going fishing etc. Three of my friends want to go on a fishing trip to Costa Rica next year, should be a lot of fun. I really need to go on a vacation to a nice hot sunny place so I can just chill on the beach and go fishing. Weather here sucks right now and it's depressing, but anyways back to the topic at hand.

The first girl is named Theresa and she is 28 years old. She has red hair with freckles. She is about 5 foot 10 and so she is not a petite girl but at the same time she is super lean with an amazing bubble butt. I can't wait to see her butt in more detail once I meet her in real life and see her in yoga pants. I assume that these girls wear yoga pants all the time even when they are just casually going to the store etc. Perhaps if I am lucky enough to get a date with one of these girls I will be able to convince them to wear yoga pants on our date. Although I am not sure if that is the best idea because I would have a hard time concentrating on the conversation if I was staring at her ass, hips, and cameltoe all night long lol. She said she works as an administrative assistant for a record label but she didn't tell me which one. The way she described it, it sounds like a pretty cool job in a relaxed working environment. She said she was in a relationship about 2 years ago and for the last 2 years she has just been dating random guys here and there but nothing serious. She said she gets hit on a lot in real life and she often has weirdos walking behind her gawking at her ass and so she has started to get a bad taste in her mouth as far as men are concerned. I don't think she understands how hot she is. She barely wears any makeup and very few accessories. She looks 10x better than most girls out there who put in 10x the effort to make themselves more appealing to men. I am working very slowly on this girl and trying to show her that I am not like every other dude out there who just wants to ravish her perfect 10 body. I am hoping that I can use my intelligence and my sensitive side to win her over because let's face it, I doubt I am her type.

The second girl is named Rebecca and while she is on the same level as Theresa, she is opposite to her in many ways. Rebecca is much more outspoken and almost borderline talks too much. When a girl talks too much it can be cute at first but it gets annoying as time progresses. It can drive a man totally insane and mess with his self confidence. I am just hoping that she talks this much because she was just nervous when we spoke on the phone. I think she will chill out more and become more comfortable once I actually meet her in real life which is something that I am currently working on with her. Since her personality is more vibrant than Theresa's I am not going to go slow with this girl. I am going to play into her bubbly personality and express my feelings much more directly and ask much more difficult questions so I can progress things quicker and maybe get a chance to bang her before I get sick of hanging around her because she talks so much. I know that some of you might think that this sounds self centered and mean but I am just saying that "it is what it is". I never said I wanted a long term relationship with one of these yoga girls... shit I have no idea what kind of girl I want or if I want a long term relationship at all. I am just going to try out all different kinds of girls without getting attached to the first girl who comes along. I am not going to repeat the same mistakes. The definition of insanity is repeating the same action and expecting a different result.

Anyways Rebecca works in sales for a baby apparel company. She works with the wholesale side of the business which I think is pretty cool. Perhaps that is why she talks so much, because she is in sales. Shitty female salesman who hang out with dudes and try and act like men when they sell is the most annoying thing in the world to listen and witness. They never do well because women feel threatened by them and men don't respect them. She is 27 years old and said that she just got out of a relationship that lasted 6 months. They say jump you say how high.

The other night I had a dream that I was walking down a path of charred cigars. They were the same cigarillos that my father used to smoke. When I reached the end of the path he was sitting before me but he was an unrecognizable figure but I knew it was supposed to be my dad because he was smoking the same vanilla flavored cigars and I the whole place was thick with dark smoke and I could taste it and was choking on it. He was muttering something about never going to be happy and about how I was cursed. I awoke in a furious sweat and had to head to the window and get some fresh night air. I wish he would stop haunting me. I wish I was born to another family. I wish I had another father. I wish I would have been raised differently. I wish he wasn't dead.

Despite all this morbid bullshit I am still constantly reminded that I am luckier and more fortunate than other people. I just wished knowing this would be enough motivation to make me do the things I would rather not do but I know would be good for me. Sometimes I wish I lived in the jungle somewhere and lead a more simple life but I know this could never happen and even if I was to move somewhere like that, it would not be what I hoped it would be because I am forever tainted with the experiences and memories that I have. They are what has shaped me into the man I am today and I can not unlearn or unwitness anything. I must embrace what I am and seek happiness.

I am trying to be a nice guy online. I am trying to be a different person. I am trying to be the man I wish people would look at me as at. I don't know if I am kidding myself or not but I am definitely enjoying talking to these women I am meeting online about love, relationships, hopes and fears. I decided this morning that I am going to seek out more mature women and also try and find spiritually enlightened women. I am not saying that I am a really spiritual person, in fact I am quite logical and believe a lot in science etc but at the same time, most of the love that I have felt in my life has felt like magic. Living life according to logic is extremely dry so I am willing to try anything at this point. I think that if I can meet a girl who is very spiritual then she will hopefully not be really insecure like most girls that I meet and this means she would have the capacity to understand me and tolerate me.

This means that I am now looking for girls who do yoga and also women who are into trantic sex. I am also looking for girls who study Buddhism and other relaxing religions. I think that girls who practice meditation would be ideal partners to pursue also. So I am starting over and I am only going to contact girls who fit this profile. I will let you guys know how it goes cuz today I sent out about 10 messages and now I am just waiting for some replies.

So I have decided that this horny freak of a female named Isabelle has got some serious issues but she is good for a laugh so I am not going to totally blow her off but I doubt I will ever actually hook up with her in real life. A late night cyber session or to show my buddies I don't make this shit up is all I will use her for lol, besides it seems like that is all she wants anyways. I decided that I am not yet ready to tackle the hotness that is Eva so instead I have been focusing my attention on the easier to get girl named Erin who if you recall is the girl with the red short hair and tattoos. She seems very eager to please which is a good thing for a lazy oaf like myself. I dunno why I put myself down... I really should think more positive. I think it is because I don't have enough female presence in my life. My mother died when I was 6 years old and my father never remarried. I think deep down I always resented him for that. Sure he had a few girlfriends off and on but he had no game and the strange thing was that he seemed almost relieved that she was dead. As if he had made some grave mistake and God had wiped the slate clean and given him a second chance. A second chance that he decided would be easier without the presence of females to "complicate things" as he liked to put it. I still remember the way the house would smell when he would sit in his old recliner on a sunny afternoon listening to The Smiths and smoking vanilla flavored cigarillos. I couldn't wait to move out and get out from that place and I got my chance when I went to college but when I got to college I felt overwhelmed by hanging out with girls in clubs and I ended up hanging out with the stoners and not developing much during those prime years. Maybe I need to move to Europe and fall in love with a buck toothed girl from Luxembourg. God I wish I really hated the smiths but there is just something about Morrissey's voice that is so soothing and uplifting despite how dismal his lyrics as if he and he alone understands me and my plights. As much as I hate my father, I still love him and I definitely miss him. He passed away 2 years ago from lung cancer. I hope I don't get lung cancer myself from smoking pot. I don't smoke as much as I used to when I was college but still more than I would like. I guess smoking pot doesn't really help with meeting girls cuz it makes you antisocial and unapproachable. Maybe I should go see a shrink or something. I'm just lonely and I hope it changes soon.

Well it's Sunday and I'm sipping on a bloody mary so I thought the title of this post would be appropriate. I have been chatting with girls all morning... still sitting here in my boxer shorts at the computer.... it's been one of those days. I am going over to a buddy's place in a few hours to watch football on his big screen and drink some beers with the boys. Yeah I know it's a sausagefest but hey it's what we like and need to do as men.

I have been messaging 7 different girls back and forth and have been chatting live with 3 of them on msn messenger exchanging pics, webcam shots etc. The first girl is named Erin and she is a redhead with short hair and tatoos. I certainly see a lot of this kind of girl in Charlotte but she seems cool. She is 28 and she works in a law firm as an assistant or something.

The second girl is named Eva and she is real prim and proper and she is 32. The kind of girl I would like to hook up with. Just talking with her a short time and I am realizing that I may need to work on some shit before I can score a chick like this with brains and shit. I think I need to stop cursing also but shit it's hard Anyhoo she is tall and curvy and has long brown hair. She is a yoga instructor and I am trying to get a date with her this weekend.

The third girl is some young skank named Isabelle. She is only 21 and she has been exposing herself to me on webcam over msn morning lol. I didn't realize there were horny young girls out there and in a way it's kind of a turn off. I prefer girls that play a bit hard to get. These horny young girls on these sites are really not what I am looking for. I am still chatting with her because I want to see if she has any substance to her or if she is just foofoo like so many young girls I seem to be meeting online and in real life.

Hopefully toward the middle of the week I will have more to report on and ideally have a date lined up for Friday or Saturday.

I'm just a regular dude who likes paintball, football, video games, hunting, and fishing. I'm 29 and I am a welder for a commercial construction company. I have had the odd relationship here and there but nothing serious. Most of the girls I was with got too clingy and always had issues with me hanging out with my friends, going on fishing trips etc. They didn't understand that this is something that men do and they need to accept it. I promised myself I would never hook up with another girl that didn't understand my needs and was understanding of who I am and what I need to be happy.

I decided to start meeting girls online using a dating site because I do not like going to clubs. I only go to sportsbars and most of the girls I meet there are already with guys or have already banged half the guys in the place. Also I am not looking for a girl that is butchy and a tomboy, I don't want her want trying to join us on fishing trips and stuff. I just want her to understand and pack me a lunch etc and wish me well while I chill with my bros. Hopefully I can find this kind of girl online. I look forward to posting about all my adventures on here.